They just passed by........

हर घडी बदल रहा है रूप ज़िन्दगी

छाव है कही, कही है धुप ज़िद्नागी

So true, so realistic expression, it’s something that I relate to each phase, each change and transition of life.

May 6^th 2010, the last day of my PG college, it could have been the most memorable day, it was but not the way it should have been.

A lot could have happened over a coffee, as it used to be, but it didn’t.

Still the moments were cherished, leavings things far behind.

The journey of my PG started from September 8, 2008, where I started with least expectations from a government institute, lacking a modern outlook, a old infrastructure, where there were whiteboards still the blackboards accompanied them, some old chairs, some broken ones, air conditioners were the need but everyone satisfied themselves with the open windows. The building and the spiral staircase with those hard stone walls, with bats hanging, pigeons roaming just gave a feeling of a jail as in constructed by the kings, emperors or may be britishers….

But getting above all this my aim was to learn, infrastructure didn’t meant much, as faculty ws good, better than some private ones here, and especially Professors like Kalpana Mam, an awesome teacher, a learned experienced person, and just an outstanding, intelligent, inspiring and beautiful human being.

Remembering the starting days, where unity was the motto against the TANASHAHI of seniors, but slowly the over small issues the class was divided and no one ruled.

Government institutes lack discipline, I would rather say the autocratic behavior and follow the democracy policy and with everything happening for the students and by the students, gives birth to politics, it was realized by us, where a political game was played to postpone the exams, ruin our training period, which could have been a life time experience, our first step towards practical life. Atrinnd the anger filled in hearts due to this, just crushed the broken pieces into bits and pieces.

Then came a phase where we became seniors, entry of notorious, ever smiling, leg pullers, and our super enthusiastic juniors. In front of them, I doubt we have showed off our seniority, it was in fact is a healthy friendship, time(waqt) flowed like sand with them, we struggled, we worked and enjoyed and learned a lot with each experience with them be it their fresher’s, conference and most importantly our farewell ( I loved the title of Miss DMS ;) :))

But along with the farewell phase came a phase where my thought that we all have fared well was proven wrong। A phase of emotional breakdowns, misunderstandings and reality checks, it feels as if relationship cycle follows the pattern of PLC (Product Life Cycle)

We came across lots and lots of parameters, love, affection, trust, truth, hopes, realization, priorities, patience, anger, grudge and many more…. Each parameter was s much attached, so much weighed on friendship, that friendship , the relation, lost its own meaning, just couldn’t bear this weight it tried a lot to hold but……………

The moments of laughing together, pulling each other’s leg, teasing around, being chivious and chirpy, playing truth and dare, revealing truth, predicting future with predictions chit game, walking upstairs to college, walking down the GT lane, hanging out at CCD, making each birthday a fun moment, clicking pictures, सब उस दिन बस याद बन कर रह गए………

कोशिश की कुछ जोड़ने की,

बीती बातो को छोड़ने की,

पर कहते है न रिश्ते रेशम की डोर की तरह होते है,

एक बार टूट जाए,

चाहे सोचे गिठान के साथ ही जी लिए जाए,

पर वो गिठान भी नही टिकती….

Time has passed and will pass by, who’ll be with you and who won’t be, you’ll never know.

Someone has rightly “Everyone feel that they are always right।” Yes, because one can feel the pain within, no one other can, your tears do show that you are hurt but you haven’t seen the other ones crying that doesn’t mean they are not in pain.